These baby days are going by so fast. Each new day brings new adventures. Amara is rapidly learning and moving right along to the next thing once one thing is mastered. She actually learned to clap a few weeks ago, did it a few times and hasn't done it again since. That's because now, she is learning to flip and flop all around on the floor, sit up by herself like a big girl, the laws of gravity (by dropping things from the high chair then inspecting what happened), and the laws of cause and effect (by banging her mesh feeder, repeatedly, and quite loudly, on her high chair).
It is all so exciting to watch but part of me is quite sad. I am at the top of the hill on this roller coaster, right before the first big drop. And once we drop, the twists and turns will provide moments of thrill and then it will be over. Just like that. The baby days will come to a rapid stop. Babies don't stay babies very long. Technically, I think they are babies until 2 maybe....? Then they're considered toddlers. But really, in my mind, between 12 and 15 months, the babyness starts to fade. And I'm halfway through all that already!
I have listened intently when people tell me, in warning tones "enjoy it because it doesn't last long." And I have! But I just want to pause this moment. I want to get a Saturday, when Papa Bear is home and push pause on the remote control of life. Just until I'm ready, maybe a few days. Or a few weeks.
Of course, I look forward to the future. I tell Andy that "next year at this time, I'll be chasing little Amara around." And today, we went out to eat for Andy's first Father's Day. There was a little girl at the table next to us, maybe 3 years old. She was holding out her french fry to her dad, telling him about something on it. I said "Amara is going to be so cute when she's that age. She'll be holding out her french fry to you and telling you all about it." And I pictured what she would look like, what she would sound like, the facial expressions and the words she would use (words way beyond her 3 year old level of course). But for right now, I see Amara blossoming every day. She is starting to actually understand what I say when I talk to her. I am having so much fun and I just want to be stuck here for a little while, that's all.
And that is why we should all seize the day. Because you can never get back what you missed. Yes, carpe diem.
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I think you could say that about anyone, anytime- carpe diem. Of course that is especially true with little kids though.
ReplyDeleteAs bittersweet as it may be to watch Amara grow up- I bet that you'll get another baby to fill the baby void soon enough!
The other thing I would say... take lots of photos. Personally I prefer photos to video- photos are smaller, and you can take as long or as short of a time as you want to look at them. Digital photos are really good because you can make backups and have extra copies. I would recommend that you save the digital version, but also get your photos printed occasionally and put them in an album. My mom took lots of photos of me and my sister (of course that was back in the age of film), and she preserved those in albums. They are not scrapbooked or anything fancy like that- just pages and pages of photos. Every now and then I will go back and look at that- all the memories and stuff, it's fun to remember. I've even been scanning some of them into the computer lately.
(BTW, I will ask my mom where she buys her photo pages. Someplace online, I think. They are acid free, which is good, b/c some of our older photos that were originally mounted on acidic pages show their wear. But they are just really simple pages that you can drop photos into, then of course you fill an acid free photo album or binder with them.)
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